My husband died on Good Friday

The neuro-oncologist said he would die, the palliative care team said he would die, then the hospice team said he would die. Soon.

But no matter how prepared we think we are, we aren’t.

This was not the first time we had to address mortality. Six years ago Randy had a lung transplant that saved his life. But 5 years after the transplant he had a seizure that led to a diagnosis of inoperable, incurable brain cancer. So we knew, because the neuro-oncologist told us, that he didn’t have long to live. Many tests and scans, radiology, chemotherapy, but the tumor grew and another tumor appeared and finally, the cancer spread to his spinal column. And suddenly life expectancy was 1-3 months and he was in palliative care mode. So I KNEW he was dying quickly. But despite the passing weeks and months, I sometimes can’t believe it. I mean, how could he just DIE? How could he be GONE?

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Sing along

Images by Eddie, Thomas Steffan, Compadre Eduardo and Carl Lender.

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A kind of forever

Photo by Judson Moore on Unsplash

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So here’s the thing

He had a lot of hats

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Missing him so much

Refrigerator magnets I never want to take down

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A word about Facebook

I don’t know what he was doing with this photo - that’s the shower wall behind him and it doesn’t look nice at all. I’m thinking he was doing some photoshop work, playing around with black and white.