Looking back

Taken soon after we moved in together - he was a good hugger.

I have never been one of those people who looks back fondly on some other period of my life. Generally speaking, my life has improved over time up until Randy got sick. But a few months ago one of my daughters began a new relationship and I find myself longing for an earlier time, maybe even feeling jealous. They are in their late 30s, as Randy and I were when we started out together. While those first years were not without challenges, they were the opening of the best chapter of my life - a chapter that closed upon his death. I would give anything to go back there.